Part 1
When I came back from spring break, the hallway outside my dorm smelled like cold pizza and somebody’s overconfident cologne, the usual mix of mid-semester despair and hope. I dragged my suitcase past door after door, half-listening to someone arguing on speakerphone about whether a situationship counted as cheating, and then I saw it.
My door.
Locked. Not just “forgot your keycard” locked. My keycard blinked red like it was personally offended by my existence.
And taped to the center of the door was a wreath.
A memorial wreath.
Green pine, white lilies, a ribbon that said In Loving Memory.
My name was on it.
For a second I thought I was having one of those sleep-deprived, post-travel hallucinations where your brain decides reality is optional. I blinked hard. The wreath stayed.
A girl walking by slowed down. Her eyes did that quick up-down scan people do when they’re deciding whether to interact with a stranger or pretend they didn’t see you.
Then she whispered, “Oh my God,” like she’d just seen a ghost.
Which, apparently, she believed she had, because my roommate, Kayle, chose that moment to burst out of the stairwell.
She stopped dead when she saw me. Her face drained so fast I thought she might faint.
She screamed.
Not a small scream. Not a startled squeak. A full horror-movie, “the monster is inches away” scream that bounced off the cinderblock walls and made three doors open at once.
“NO,” she shrieked, backing away so quickly her heel clipped a recycling bin and she nearly fell. “No no no no no. I told them you didn’t like me, I told them we weren’t even friends, I—”
“Kayle,” I said, because that was the only word I could find. “What is happening?”
She pointed at me with a shaking finger. “You’re dead.”
“Okay,” I said automatically, because sometimes my mouth goes into customer-service mode when my life is on fire. “I’m gonna need you to explain what you mean by that.”
Her eyes rolled back like she was about to pass out, and that was when two campus security officers rounded the corner, saw me standing there, saw Kayle losing her mind, and immediately decided I was the problem.
“Ma’am,” one of them said, reaching for his radio. “Step away from the door.”
“I live here,” I said. “I’m—”
The other officer’s gaze flicked to the wreath. His expression changed from annoyed to alarmed, like he’d found a raccoon in the cafeteria. “We’ve got a situation.”
Before I could finish a sentence, my wrist was in a firm grip and I was being guided—dragged, honestly—down the hall.
“I’m not resisting,” I said, because it sounded like the kind of thing you say when you’re about to be handcuffed for being alive. “I’m literally a student. My student ID is in my wallet. Which is in my backpack. Which you are currently—”
A door opened. A guy leaned out. “Is that her?”
“I don’t know who ‘her’ is,” I snapped, panic finally catching up with my brain, “but if you mean me, yes, I’m me.”
Kayle was sobbing now, clutching her phone like it was a rosary. “It’s her,” she whispered. “It’s her face.”
They marched me past the RA’s desk, past the elevator, out into the cold spring air like I was a criminal and not a nineteen-year-old who had just returned from visiting her aunt and eating too many airport pretzels.
Campus security didn’t take me to the police station. They took me to the administration building, which is somehow worse, because at least police stations don’t have inspirational posters about leadership.
Inside, the dean’s office was a glass-walled aquarium of authority. Dean Harlow, a woman with the controlled energy of someone who could ruin your life with a signature, looked up as I was escorted in.
She didn’t look angry. She looked… cautious. Like you look at a dog you’re not sure will bite.
“Miss Harper,” she said, very carefully, as if my name might detonate.
“That’s me,” I said, breathless. “Hi. I’d love to know why my room is locked and why my roommate thinks I’m—”
Dean Harlow held up a newspaper.
The student newspaper.
And there, above the fold, was a photo of me from freshman orientation—my face, my stupid bright smile, my hair in that half-up style I’d worn exactly once.
The headline read: TRAGEDY ON SPRING BREAK: STUDENT LOST IN FREAK ACCIDENT.
I leaned in, brain refusing to process the words.
The article said I had died in Maine.
It said I’d been struck by a runaway parade float shaped like a giant lobster at a seafood festival. It used phrases like “beloved member of our community” and “taken too soon,” which was impressive, considering I’d taken exactly two campus selfies in my entire life and had never once been beloved by anyone who had met me during finals week.
Dean Harlow slid an email printout across the desk.
“Your father contacted us,” she said. “He was… distraught. He provided police reports. Documentation. A death certificate.”
My throat went dry.
“My dad?” I said, like maybe she meant someone else’s dad. Like maybe there was a second Erin Harper whose father was currently committing felony-level fraud.
Dean Harlow nodded. “He called us sobbing. He said there had been an accident. He begged us to handle things discreetly.”
The room wobbled slightly. I sat down without meaning to.
“There was a candlelight vigil,” she continued, as if she was discussing a campus barbecue. “Two thousand students attended. Your roommate gave a eulogy.”
Kayle’s screams echoed in my skull: I told them we weren’t even friends.
Dean Harlow’s lips pressed together. “We also… made arrangements. Academic arrangements.”
My stomach dropped before she even said the next words.
“Your spot in the Swiss Institute program,” she said gently, “was given to the next student on the waitlist.”
The Swiss Institute for Global Consciousness. My golden ticket. Six months abroad. A resume line so shiny it practically glowed. I’d spent three years keeping my GPA high enough to qualify, juggling internships and labs and late-night study sessions fueled by vending-machine pretzels.
My flight was supposed to leave tomorrow morning.
I stared at the dean, feeling something hot and sharp rise behind my ribs. “My father did this?” I said, voice cracking. “He told you I died?”
Dean Harlow’s eyes softened in that administrative way that meant she had sympathy but also policies. “Miss Harper, we were concerned. Your father’s behavior suggests he may be experiencing a mental health crisis.”
“A crisis?” I repeated. “He faked my death. That’s not a crisis, that’s—”
My phone buzzed in my pocket, like it had been waiting for its cue.
Dad.
I answered with hands that barely worked. “What did you do?” I demanded, loud enough that even the security officers shifted uncomfortably.
His voice was calm. Too calm. “You’re back on campus?”
“Yes,” I hissed. “And apparently I’m also dead. Because you told everyone I was dead.”
A pause. Then, quietly, “Check your email.”
“Are you kidding me—”
He hung up.
I stared at my phone like it had betrayed me.
Dean Harlow watched me with the expression of someone bracing for impact. “Miss Harper, perhaps we should contact a counselor—”
“No,” I said, already unlocking my phone, fingers numb. “I need to see what he sent.”
My inbox loaded.
There was a new email from Dad, subject line: READ THIS BEFORE YOU GET ON ANY PLANE.
The body was short.
Erin,
I know you hate me right now.
You’re alive. That’s the point.
Please read every attachment. Every screenshot. Every message.
Then call me.
Love, Dad
Below it were files. Dozens of them. PDFs. Photos. Video links. Screen recordings.
My anger was a roaring thing, a wildfire that wanted to consume everything.
And then I clicked the first attachment.
It was a screenshot of the Swiss Institute’s “official” website with highlighted text. The highlights circled phrases I’d skimmed right past when I applied: total immersion, identity renewal, spiritual alignment.
Below that was a second screenshot.
A different website.
Same logo, different name.
Eternal Servants of Gerald the Undying.
I blinked.
A third attachment opened: a blurry aerial photo of a compound in Montana, surrounded by fencing.
Not Switzerland.
Montana.
My mouth went dry as the next document loaded: a testimony from a former “student” describing being stripped of their name and assigned a number. Being forced to wear a cowbell collar. Communicating only by mooing, because human language was “an insult to Gerald.”
Gerald, according to the document, was a ten-thousand-year-old yak.
My brain tried to laugh.
My brain failed.
I kept scrolling, the way you keep reading a car crash report even though you know it’s going to get worse.
There were photos of a “mozzarella meditation chamber.” A chart ranking members by milk fat percentage. A page explaining sacred yogurt techniques with diagrams that looked like they belonged in a culty dairy Kama Sutra.
Then came the part that made my blood run cold.
A screenshot of a group chat.
Seventeen members.
White vans.
Campus.
Tomorrow morning.
And a message that read: If she resists, use chloroform. We need the golden heir before the full moon.
I stared at the screen, unable to breathe.
Dean Harlow leaned over despite herself, her eyes scanning the words.
Her face drained of color.
In the lobby outside her office, there was a sudden commotion—voices, urgent and insistent.
A security officer stepped toward the door, hand on his radio. “Dean,” he said quietly, “there are three people downstairs asking about a student who missed her flight this morning.”
A different kind of fear crawled up my spine, ice-cold and alive.
Through the glass wall, I saw them.
Business suits. Calm smiles.
And each one had a tiny cowbell pinned to their lapel like a corporate badge.
The middle one looked directly at me through the glass.
And mouthed two words.
“Hello, 247.”
Part 2
My body went rigid in a way I didn’t know it could. Every muscle locked, as if my skeleton had decided we were playing statue until the danger passed.
The security officer reacted faster than I did. He stepped directly into my line of sight, blocking the glass wall with his broad shoulders.
“Back office,” he said, voice clipped, the tone people use when there’s a fire and you don’t have time to argue about shoes. He guided me toward an inner room with no windows.
Dean Harlow followed, her heels clicking like a metronome of panic. Her assistant trailed behind, wide-eyed, clutching a clipboard like it could stop a kidnapping.
Inside the inner office, the air felt too warm. Too still. The security officer shut the door and immediately started speaking into his radio.
“Need units at admin. Possible trespassers. Potential threat,” he said, then looked at me. “Call 911.”
My hands were shaking so badly my phone nearly flew out of my grip. I punched the numbers like they were slippery.
“911, what’s your emergency?”
“There are people here,” I said, voice thin, “trying to take me. They’re— they’re with a fake study abroad program. It’s a cult. They have— my number. They—”
“Okay,” the operator said in that calm, anchored way that made me want to cling to her voice. “Stay where you are. Units are already en route. Campus security called about suspicious individuals.”
Dean Harlow paced like a caged animal. “This is— this is unbelievable,” she muttered. “We declared a student deceased. There’s a vigil. There’s a garden. And now—”
“Dean,” the guard snapped, not unkindly but firmly. “Focus.”
The lobby noise grew louder through the walls. A male voice, smooth and confident, carried through the door: “We’re here out of concern for our enrolled student. She missed her flight. We have legal documents indicating we are designated caregivers.”
I swallowed hard. “They’re saying I need psychiatric care,” I whispered, remembering the screenshot where they’d talked about “voluntary commitment.”
“Classic,” the guard said grimly, like he’d seen something like this before, which was… not comforting.
My phone buzzed. A call came in.
Detective Omar McLean.
I answered so fast I nearly cracked the screen. “Detective,” I breathed.
“Erin,” he said, voice steady. “Don’t move. I’m five minutes out. I need you to forward me everything you have. Right now.”
I fumbled, forwarding my dad’s email chain, screenshots, and the attachments that made my stomach churn. My finger slipped twice because my hands wouldn’t cooperate, but eventually I got the messages out.
Dean Harlow’s phone pinged too, and she started scrolling through the documents I’d sent her earlier. Her expression shifted from disbelief to horror as she reached the section about “power of attorney” and “breeding program.”
She sank into her chair like her bones had turned to sand.
The guard cracked the door just enough to slip his phone through and take photos of the lobby. “Three of them,” he murmured. “Matching your description. Cowbells and all.”
Outside, papers rustled. Someone insisted, “This is a wellness check. We have a duty of care. Our student is confused and under tremendous stress.”
“You can’t just walk in and demand a student,” Dean Harlow’s assistant argued, her voice shaking.
“We can,” the cult man replied smoothly, “when the student has contracted with us. She is legally bound.”
I thought of the welcome package I’d ignored under my bed. My skin crawled.
The guard’s radio crackled with confirmation that more officers were entering the building.
Then my phone rang again.
Dad.
I stared at his name, my throat tightening with equal parts fury and something else—something that felt like a frightened child reaching for the only adult she trusted.
I put him on speaker.
“Are you safe?” he asked immediately. His voice was rough, like he’d been yelling or crying for hours.
“They’re here,” I said. “In the admin building. They just called me 247.”
A sharp inhale. “Okay. Listen to me. Stay inside. Don’t go near windows. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, Erin. I didn’t know what else to do.”
Dean Harlow pressed her lips together, listening.
“I found their group chat three days ago,” Dad continued, words tumbling out. “They were coordinating. They had your schedule, Erin. They— they were talking about chloroform. About vans. I kept thinking about—” His voice cracked. “I kept thinking about losing you. I couldn’t.”
“So you told everyone I was dead,” I said, the words tasting bitter.
“Yes,” he said, like confessing to something holy and awful. “Because dead people don’t board planes. Dead people get removed from systems. Dead people become paperwork. And paperwork buys time.”
In the lobby, the voices rose—argument, security pushing back.
Then the inner office door rattled with a sharp knock.
“It’s Registrar Lin,” a woman called. “Dean, we need you.”
Dean Harlow opened the door a sliver. A middle-aged woman stepped in, arms full of folders, her expression strained.
“I’ve never done this,” the registrar said, pushing her glasses up. “I didn’t even know this was possible. But apparently we have to… reverse a death.”
It would have been funny if my life hadn’t been actively collapsing.
She spread forms across the desk like she was dealing tarot cards.
“We need identification,” she said. “Student ID, birth certificate, Social Security number. Anything to establish you are you.”
I pulled out my wallet with trembling hands, offering my student ID like it was a lifeline.
As the registrar scribbled and stamped, my phone buzzed relentlessly—Instagram tags, texts, messages from classmates I barely knew.
Someone had posted an old photo of me at a campus event I didn’t remember attending with the caption: Fly high, angel.
Another had written: Can’t believe she’s gone.
A third: Miss u queen.
It was like watching my own funeral through a keyhole, and then realizing the mourners were mostly strangers who just liked the drama.
Then a GoFundMe link appeared.
IN MEMORY OF ERIN HARPER.
Raised: $12,000.
I made a sound halfway between a laugh and a sob. “This can’t be real.”
“It’s real,” the guard muttered, still watching the door. “People love a tragedy.”
The lobby erupted in louder shouting. The security officers had arrived in force, and their voices were firm now.
“You are being issued a no-trespass order,” an officer said. “You need to leave campus property immediately.”
“We have rights,” one of the cult reps snapped. “You can’t—”
“We can,” the officer cut in. “Move.”
Heavy footsteps. The squeal of a chair. The rustle of papers as they were yanked back.
A moment later, the guard peeked through the crack and exhaled. “They’re being escorted out.”
My lungs finally remembered how to work.
But relief didn’t last. Because I knew what Dad knew.
If they were bold enough to walk into the administration building with fake credentials and cowbell pins, they weren’t going to stop just because campus security told them to.
Detective McLean arrived like a storm in a trench coat, moving fast, eyes sharp. He took in the room, the papers, the evidence box the guard had retrieved from my dorm.
“Show me everything,” he said.
We opened the box.
The cowbell collar clinked softly when I lifted it. The sound made my stomach flip.
There were gloves that looked handmade but were definitely real fur. A vial labeled Gerald’s Blessing with opaque white liquid inside. A handbook thicker than my econ textbook, filled with diagrams and reverent language about milk.
There was also a printed certificate with an embossed seal:
HEIR 24/7.
The detective’s jaw tightened. “They’re escalating,” he said quietly.
He pulled up security footage on the guard’s computer, rewinding to the lobby. The three reps stood in crisp suits, smiling like insurance agents. Then he switched to parking lot cameras.
Three white vans sat in visitor spots.
Montana plates.
My mouth went numb.
Detective McLean made a call, his voice low and fast. He asked for plate checks, for backup, for someone to alert local PD.
Then he looked at me, really looked at me, and his expression softened in a way that felt human amid all the machinery.
“I need you to understand something,” he said. “Your father’s stunt—illegal as it was—might have disrupted a timetable. It might have saved you.”
I thought of the wreath. The vigil. The dead version of me that had briefly existed in the minds of two thousand students.
I thought of the cult rep mouthing my number through glass.
My voice came out as a whisper. “What now?”
“Now,” Detective McLean said, “we keep you breathing. We document everything. And we make sure these people don’t get near you again.”
Outside, somewhere in the building, a door slammed.
My head snapped up.
The guard’s hand went to his radio.
Detective McLean’s eyes sharpened. “Stay away from windows,” he said again.
And in the pit of my stomach, I realized: being declared dead had been terrifying.
But being alive—being alive was what they wanted.
Part 3
That night, I didn’t sleep. I lay on a borrowed cot in a campus security back room because nobody wanted me alone in my dorm, not after the vans. The fluorescent light buzzed overhead, and every time it flickered my brain translated it into danger.
I kept hearing the cowbell clink in my head.
Every time my phone lit up with notifications, my body jumped like I’d been shocked.
At 2:13 a.m., someone started a hashtag on campus social media: #ZombieErin. By 2:30, it was trending.
At 3:05, Kayle texted: ARE YOU REALLY ALIVE????? followed by fifteen question marks.
I stared at it, unable to decide whether to scream or cry.
By morning, the university had moved me into a temporary apartment in the graduate housing complex under a fake name. Keycard access. Cameras. One entrance. No balcony. It felt like a bunker disguised as a studio.
I hated how safe it made me feel.
Detective McLean met me at the courthouse two days later to file for an emergency protection order. The clerk took one look at the stack of evidence—photos of the collar, screenshots of the group chat, stills of the vans, the cult rep tackled near the science building with zip ties in his pocket—and fast-tracked the hearing.
The tackled cult member had tried to approach me on a path by the science building the day before. He’d stepped out like he’d been waiting for me.
I’d run. Not gracefully. Not like a movie heroine. Like a terrified animal.
Campus security had arrived within two minutes of me slamming the emergency phone button. They’d taken him down hard.
The detective showed me the inventory list afterward: zip ties, duct tape, a syringe filled with clear liquid.
Attempted kidnapping looked a lot less ridiculous on paper.
In the courtroom, the cult reps showed up wearing their suits and cowbell pins like uniforms. They tried to talk about religious freedom and educational discrimination.
The judge’s eyebrows climbed higher with every sentence.
When he stamped the temporary order—stay 500 feet away, no contact, no agents—I felt my shoulders drop a fraction for the first time in weeks.
Not peace. Not safety.
But a line in the sand.
Then the media found out.
A local blog posted a headline that made me want to crawl out of my skin: DEAD STUDENT RETURNS, CLAIMS LACTOSE CULT WAS AFTER HER.
They used my real name. They pulled photos from my Instagram. They quoted a “source” who said my father was “unstable” and I was “clearly in on it.”
Within hours, bigger outlets picked it up, and the story got warped into something people could laugh at.
Memes of a crowned yak flooded my feeds.
Someone made a TikTok dance called The Golden Heir Shuffle.
A conspiracy account posted that the whole thing was a stunt funded by “Big Dairy” to sabotage oat milk.
I made everything private, changed my number, and still the messages seeped through like water through cracked walls.
New accounts followed me with names like servantofgerald247 and wholemilkascension. They sent DMs packed with syrupy language and veiled threats.
You can’t run from destiny.
We know where you live.
The herd is patient.
I screenshotted everything and sent it to Detective McLean, who replied with one sentence: Keep sending. This helps.
Meanwhile, the university tried to fix my “death.”
Registrar Lin called me in to sign more affidavits proving I was alive, as if my pulse wasn’t evidence enough.
Financial aid was chaos. Scholarships had been canceled. Courses dropped. My study abroad spot—my real one—was gone, replaced by someone who wasn’t dead.
I sat in Registrar Lin’s office staring at the updated schedule she printed for me: empty.
“Can’t you appeal?” I asked, voice small.
She shook her head, exhausted. “There’s no appeals process for death.”
I left the office and walked straight to the memorial garden they’d planted near the library.
They’d installed a bench with my name on a plaque. Flowers had been left there—real ones, and plastic ones, and one sad bouquet of grocery-store carnations.
I sat on the bench and stared at my own name carved in metal like it belonged to someone else.
Groundskeepers approached with tools. One of them paused awkwardly.
“Uh,” he said, scratching his neck. “We’re… we’re taking the plaque down today.”
“Yeah,” I said. “Makes sense.”
He hesitated. “It was a nice plaque.”
I laughed once, sharp and humorless. “Thanks. I’m glad my death was tasteful.”
That afternoon, a thick envelope arrived from a law firm in Montana. The letterhead had a yak wearing a crown.
They claimed I owed them forty thousand dollars for “breach of spiritual contract” because I’d accepted their welcome package.
Campus legal counsel looked at it and actually laughed.
“They’re throwing spaghetti at the wall,” my assigned university lawyer said. “They’re scared.”
The word scared landed in my chest.
Good, I thought.
Let them be scared.
My father, meanwhile, faced charges for filing a false report. The prosecutor offered him a diversion program: therapy, community service, no jail if he complied.
When Detective McLean told me, my first reaction was fury.
He had detonated my life. He had made me dead on paper. He had wrecked my education.
And yet…
That night, in therapy—because the university fast-tracked me into a counselor who specialized in trauma and cult recovery, which I didn’t even know existed—I admitted the truth out loud.
“If he hadn’t done it,” I whispered, staring at my hands, “I might have gotten on that plane.”
My counselor nodded gently. “Both things can be true,” she said. “He harmed you. And he protected you.”
The sentence didn’t resolve anything.
It just named the knot.
Dad texted me asking to meet. I refused unless Detective McLean was present.
So we met in the security office, the detective sitting between us like a referee.
Dad looked wrecked—older, grayer, his eyes red-rimmed. He kept looking at me like he was checking I was solid.
“I didn’t sleep,” he said. “Not for days.”
“I noticed,” I said, because my anger needed somewhere to go.
He flinched. “I know you hate me.”
“I don’t know what I feel,” I admitted, and that was the scariest part—how true it was.
Detective McLean cleared his throat. “We’ve confirmed the vans trace back to shell companies linked to a compound in Montana,” he said, bringing us back to the thing that mattered. “We’ve got missing person cases with similar patterns. The feds are interested.”
Dad’s hands shook around his coffee cup. “They followed her,” he said hoarsely. “They drugged her drink. I saw the footage.”
I stared at him. “You saw footage?”
He nodded, eyes wet. “I went to the restaurant. I begged for security video. I paid a manager to pull it. I watched a man drop something in your glass when you went to the bathroom.”
My stomach lurched, remembering the nightmares—cows with human eyes, mooing in Latin.
Detective McLean’s phone buzzed. He glanced at the screen, then looked up.
“They’re making moves,” he said. “We are too.”
Outside the security office window, students walked by laughing, normal and oblivious.
My life had split into two worlds: their world, where finals and parties were big deals, and my world, where a cowbell pin could mean zip ties and chloroform.
Dad reached toward me, stopped himself, and let his hand fall.
“I’m sorry,” he said again, and his voice broke. “I would do anything to keep you here.”
For the first time, I believed him fully.
And that belief—terrifying as it was—began to shift something in me.
Part 4
Three weeks later, Detective McLean called at 6:12 a.m.
I answered on the first ring, because my body had learned to live on alert.
“They’ve taken it federal,” he said.
My heart thudded once, heavy. “What does that mean?”
“It means the FBI is officially involved,” he said. “And it means this isn’t just campus harassment. They’re looking at trafficking. Fraud. Interstate conspiracy.”
I sat on the edge of my bed in the secure apartment, staring at the wall like it might change shape into something safer.
“They’re going to raid the compound,” he continued. “I can’t tell you when. But it’s coming.”
After the call, I went to my library job, reshelving books in a quiet back corner where no one made eye contact. The work was repetitive, grounding. Sliding spines into place. Restoring order to something.
My supervisor didn’t ask questions. She just left a cup of tea on the counter near me like a silent offering.
Two months later, the raid happened.
I found out because Detective McLean called again, his voice tight with adrenaline and relief.
“They hit the compound at dawn,” he said. “Seventeen arrests. Leader included.”
My lungs emptied in a shaky exhale I didn’t know I’d been holding for weeks.
“What did they find?” I asked, though part of me didn’t want to know.
“A lot,” he said grimly. “Financial records. Surveillance equipment. Files on hundreds of students. Plans to expand to more universities. Underground rooms. And… Erin, they had a folder on you.”
I swallowed hard. “What was in it?”
“Photos,” he said. “Class schedule. Notes about your routines. They were mapping you.”
My skin prickled, even though I was safe in an apartment with cameras.
“They’re building a case,” he said. “They need your testimony for grand jury.”
Two days later, I sat in a federal building with fluorescent lights that made everyone look tired. A prosecutor prepped me, walking through questions with a careful, steady tone.
In the grand jury room, twenty-three strangers watched me describe the collar, the gloves, the handbook, the message that called me the golden heir.
I didn’t make jokes. Not there.
I told the truth: that I’d been reduced to a number, hunted like property.
When it was over, the prosecutor thanked me and said my testimony helped secure indictments on dozens of federal charges.
I walked out of the building into daylight, feeling lighter and also hollow, like I’d dropped something heavy and realized I’d been using it to stay grounded.
The university changed policies. They created new vetting procedures for study abroad partnerships. They required multiple verification steps before declaring any student deceased.
My story—anonymized and filed under “the Swiss Institute incident”—became a cautionary tale they taught to freshmen during orientation.
I hated that.
I also understood it.
In the middle of all that, an unexpected email arrived from the study abroad office.
A different program. Real. Verified. Geneva, Switzerland. International business classes at an actual university. An internship placement. Extra support services.
The victim assistance fund, part of federal restitution, would cover tuition and housing.
I stared at the email for a long time, my chest aching.
It wasn’t the program I’d earned over three years.
But it was a door that had opened because I’d survived.
I accepted.
That summer, I flew to Geneva with a small suitcase, a passport, and a nervous system that still flinched at sudden sounds. On the plane, when the flight attendant offered coffee with cream, I said, “Black, please,” so quickly she blinked.
In Switzerland, I learned to breathe again.
Not all at once. Not like a movie montage.
But in pieces: on a lake shore at sunset, watching water catch fire with light. In a crowded train station where nobody knew my name or my number. In a classroom where the biggest threat was a confusing spreadsheet.
Dad texted me weather updates for Geneva like a nervous parent and a proud one at the same time.
I sent him photos of mountains, chocolate shops, and the old stone streets that made me feel like I’d stepped into a different century.
He printed every photo and taped them above his desk, according to the shaky-voiced voicemail he left when he thought I might not call back.
When I returned to campus, the cult leader had been sentenced.
Twenty years in federal prison, Detective McLean told me. No parole for at least fifteen.
The organization’s assets were frozen. Victims would receive restitution over time.
I should have felt like a triumphant ending.
Instead, I felt… quiet.
Relief isn’t fireworks. Sometimes it’s simply the absence of a siren.
That winter, I joined a trauma support group off campus. It was held in a community center with mismatched chairs and a coffee pot that tasted like old pennies.
That’s where I met Jonah.
He was the kind of person who sat facing the exit without seeming to. He noticed every new sound. Every shift in the room. He carried his keys between his fingers even indoors.
On the second meeting, he cracked a joke under his breath about how normal people worry about group projects and we worry about cults with branding strategies.
I laughed, surprised by the ease of it.
Afterward, we got coffee. Then more coffee. Then actual dates, where we talked about books and music and the weirdness of trying to be twenty when your brain keeps trying to keep you alive like you’re in a war zone.
He never asked why I avoided the dairy aisle.
I never asked why he flinched at buzzing electrical signs.
We understood each other without making it a performance.
Dad and I started family therapy, too. It was messy.
I told him how violated I’d felt, learning he’d watched my life from the shadows.
He told me—voice shaking—what it had felt like to see my face in a folder labeled breeding candidate.
We wrote boundaries on a whiteboard: no surveillance, no secret plans, no “I did it for your own good” without conversation.
He cried when I said, “You don’t get to control me to save me.”
I cried when he said, “I don’t know how to love without trying to prevent disaster.”
Slowly, we rebuilt something that wasn’t the same as before.
Something more honest.
Part 5
Three years after the wreath on my door, Dad and I sat in his kitchen on a rainy Sunday, drinking tea that had gone cold because neither of us was actually drinking it.
I had graduated by then. Honors. A clean transcript that didn’t show the semester I’d spent legally dead. A life that looked, from the outside, like a comeback story.
Inside, I still had days where a random cowbell ringtone could send my heart sprinting.
We’d avoided the biggest question for years.
Why he’d gone nuclear.
Why he’d chosen the most extreme option.
That day, he finally broke.
He stared at his hands, and his voice came out small. “There’s something I never told you,” he said.
I felt my body tense, bracing for impact.
“You know your mom died in a car accident,” he continued, eyes glassy.
“Yeah,” I said carefully. “When I was two.”
He swallowed hard. “It wasn’t a car accident.”
The room seemed to tilt.
He looked up at me, pain carved into his face. “She joined a cult,” he whispered. “A doomsday group in Oregon. I tried to get her out. I thought I could. And then… there was a mass poisoning event. It was in the news for a week and then people moved on.”
My mouth opened, but no sound came.
“I didn’t tell you because I wanted you to have a normal childhood,” he said, voice cracking. “I wanted you to believe the world was safer than it is. I wanted you to grow up without that shadow. But when you showed me that Swiss program brochure, all I could see was a pattern. The language. The pressure. The promise of purpose. And it was like—” He pressed a fist to his forehead. “It was like I was watching it happen again.”
I sat frozen, my mind trying to stitch together a new history over the old one.
“That’s why you knew,” I whispered.
He nodded, tears slipping down his face. “That’s why I couldn’t be reasonable. I tried. I begged you. And when you wouldn’t listen, I panicked. I panicked like a man who already lost one person to something he didn’t understand.”
Anger surged, then softened, then tangled with grief until I couldn’t tell them apart.
“You should have told me,” I said, voice shaking.
“I know,” he whispered. “I was wrong. I was scared. And I chose control instead of trust.”
The kitchen was quiet except for the rain tapping the window.
In that silence, I understood something I hadn’t been able to name before: my dad didn’t fake my death because he wanted to ruin my education.
He did it because, to him, death was the thing he knew.
Paperwork. Funerals. The permanence of loss.
He’d chosen a fake death to prevent a real one.
It didn’t excuse it. It didn’t erase what it cost me.
But it made the shape of his fear visible.
A month later, I started law school.
Not because I’d always dreamed of it—my dream had been international business, glossy internships, a neat career path.
But because surviving had changed my appetite for what mattered.
I studied coercive control. Fraud masquerading as opportunity. The way predators use language like “growth” and “wellness” to build cages out of promises.
I wrote a thesis about recruitment tactics targeting college students, and it won an award I didn’t even know existed.
The university invited me back to speak—anonymously at first, then later under my real name when I decided I wasn’t going to let shame keep me quiet.
I watched freshmen listen with wide eyes as I explained red flags: urgency, isolation, secretiveness, contracts that demanded too much.
After one talk, a student approached me shaking.
“They tried to recruit me,” she whispered. “A retreat. They wanted me to sign something. I thought I was crazy for being nervous.”
“You weren’t crazy,” I told her. “You were smart.”
In my second year, I interned with a victim advocacy clinic. We helped people untangle themselves from “spiritual contracts” and intimidation lawsuits and the kind of manipulation that makes you doubt your own reality.
Sometimes, late at night, I’d see Gerald the yak as a meme on someone’s phone and feel that old nausea rise.
But I could breathe through it now.
Jonah and I moved in together in a small apartment with plants we kept accidentally killing and a door alarm that made me feel ridiculous and safe.
Dad visited once a month, always texting before, always asking instead of assuming, always respecting the boundaries we’d built out of hard truth.
One evening, after a long day of studying, I pulled out an old photo Dad had printed years ago from my first real Switzerland trip: me on a mountain overlook, wind in my hair, smiling like I’d made peace with the sky.
Dad had written on the back in neat handwriting: Alive. Alive. Alive.
I sat with the photo for a long time.
If he hadn’t faked my death, I might have boarded that plane. I might have walked into a trap wearing optimism like perfume. I might have disappeared into someone else’s story.
Instead, I lost a program and gained a life.
I lost a clean path and found a purpose so sharp it could cut through lies.
I looked at my reflection in the window—older now, steadier, scarred in invisible places.
And I thought about the moment in the lobby when a man in a suit mouthed my number through glass.
I wasn’t 247 anymore.
I was Erin Harper.
A person who had been declared dead and refused to stay that way.
My dad destroyed my education, on paper.
And in doing so, he handed me back my future.
A future where I could protect other people from smiling predators with cowbell pins and polished lies.
A future that was mine.
And even now, even with everything it cost, I knew the truth I couldn’t say back then:
I would never stop thanking him for saving my life.
Part 6
Law school didn’t feel like a fresh start the way people on campus tours promised it would. It felt like walking into a brightly lit room where everyone was holding knives, smiling, and insisting it was just friendly competition.
The first week, a professor told us, “Look to your left. Look to your right. One of you won’t be here by graduation.”
It was supposed to be motivating. It made my stomach tighten like I’d heard a cowbell.
Still, I showed up. I took notes. I learned the language of statutes and precedent and burden of proof, and I learned that the law had its own rituals, its own hierarchy, its own way of turning human experiences into numbered exhibits.
That should have bothered me more than it did.
Because unlike the Swiss Institute, the law had rules that could be used to pry open cages.
On the second month of classes, I got an email from the dean of students at my old university. Not Dean Harlow—she had retired, partly from embarrassment and partly, I suspected, from exhaustion. The new dean wrote in a careful, professional tone that still carried a thread of guilt.
They had formed a student safety advisory board. They wanted someone who had firsthand experience with predatory recruitment. They wanted me.
I stared at the email for a long time. Part of me wanted to delete it. To stay away from anything that smelled like that campus, those dorm hallways, that wreath.
Another part of me—the part that had grown sharp edges—felt the pull of responsibility.
I said yes.
They flew me back for a weekend meeting. Walking through the campus again was like stepping into a dream where the details were slightly wrong. The coffee shop had repainted. The bookstore had new merch. The memorial garden still existed, except the plaque was gone and the bench now carried a generic message about resilience.
Students passed me without recognizing me, and that should have been a relief. Instead, it made me feel untethered, like the version of me who had died there still lingered somewhere between brick walls.
The advisory board met in a conference room with a long table and too many printed agendas. Administrators spoke in bullet points about “external vetting processes” and “partner verification protocols.”
Then they showed us a stack of new program applications.
I flipped through them, scanning for language that smelled like pressure. Urgency. Exclusivity. Identity renewal. Total immersion.
Most were boring in the way legitimate programs are boring.
Then I found one.
A “mindfulness leadership fellowship” in Arizona. The brochure had glossy photos of smiling students in desert sunlight. The website looked clean. The testimonials sounded plausible.
But the fine print used phrases like surrender to the process and relinquish worldly attachments.
I leaned closer, a familiar coldness sliding up my spine.
One page described a “temporary communication fast,” which was a pretty way of saying isolation. Another described a “commitment ceremony” involving legal guardianship “for the duration of the fellowship.”
I looked up. “Who vetted this?”
A staff member blinked. “It came highly recommended by a private donor.”
“Has anyone spoken to alumni independently?” I asked.
“We have references,” she said, slightly defensive.
“From who?” I pressed.
She hesitated. “From the program.”
The room got quiet.
I heard my own voice before I fully decided to speak. “That’s not vetting. That’s them vouching for themselves.”
The staff member’s face tightened, like she didn’t love being corrected by a former student. But a younger administrator—someone new, someone who hadn’t lived through the “Swiss Institute incident” with the same denial—leaned forward.
“What do you suggest?” she asked.
I took a breath. “Independent verification. Talk to alumni whose contact info you find yourself. Run the leadership through public records. Check nonprofit filings if they claim nonprofit status. And if anything smells like a contract that takes away autonomy, you walk away.”
A pause.
Then the younger administrator nodded slowly. “Okay,” she said. “Let’s do it.”
After the meeting, she pulled me aside. “I wish you hadn’t needed to become an expert in this,” she said quietly. “But I’m glad you are.”
That night, in my hotel room, my phone buzzed with an unfamiliar number.
Detective McLean’s voice came through, older and rougher but instantly recognizable. “Erin,” he said. “I’m still on the case, in a way. There’s something coming up and they might need you.”
My pulse jumped. “The cult?”
“Trial prep,” he said. “The big one. Federal court. The leader’s appealing portions of the case and some of the other defendants are trying to minimize their involvement. The prosecutor wants you as a witness again.”
I closed my eyes, my throat tightening. I’d testified once. I remembered the jurors’ faces, the way the room had felt too large and too close at the same time.
“Do I have to?” I asked, hating how small my voice sounded.
“They can subpoena you,” he said gently. “But they’re asking first. They want you prepared. They want you protected.”
I sat on the edge of the bed. “What would I say?”
“The truth,” he answered. “Again. Only this time, it’s for sentencing consequences and preventing future harm. They want to make sure nobody rewrites what happened into a quirky headline.”
My mind flashed to memes of a crowned yak. To strangers calling me a liar for attention.
“Okay,” I said, surprising myself with the steadiness of it. “Tell them I’ll do it.”
After I hung up, I stared out at the hotel window, watching campus lights blur into the dark.
For the first time, I felt something shift: not just survival, but agency.
The next morning, Dad called to check in, as he always did before big events now.
“How’s it going?” he asked carefully, like he was walking through a room full of glass.
“It’s weird,” I admitted. “Being back here.”
“I’m proud of you,” he said, and then he corrected himself quickly, because therapy had trained him out of making his feelings my responsibility. “I mean— I’m glad you’re doing what you chose.”
I smiled despite myself. “Good save.”
He laughed softly, and that laugh sounded like a man who had learned how to breathe again without holding on too tight.
On the flight home, my seatmate tried to make conversation. She asked what I did.
“I’m in law school,” I said.
“Oh wow,” she said. “What made you choose that?”
I looked down at my hands, remembering the cowbell pin, the number, the feeling of being paperwork.
Then I said, “I got really interested in how the world handles people who try to steal other people’s lives.”
She nodded like she understood.
She didn’t.
But I did.
Part 7
The federal courthouse smelled like disinfectant and old coffee, as if the building itself was trying to scrub away human messiness. The prosecutor met me in a conference room with beige walls and a pitcher of water that tasted like plastic.
She was younger than I expected, with tired eyes and a voice that didn’t waste words.
“Thank you for coming voluntarily,” she said, sliding a folder toward me. My name was printed on the tab in clean black letters, like I was a category.
Inside were photos I’d seen before and some I hadn’t.
A still from restaurant security footage: Richard Peton drifting past my table, hand tilting, something falling into my drink.
A still from campus cameras: the three suits and cowbell pins.
A still from the parking lot: the white vans.
A photo of the underground room they’d found in Montana, filled with monitors and labeled files. There was a wall of folders, each one a person. Each one a life.
My hands went cold.
“We’re focusing on two things,” the prosecutor said. “Establishing coercive tactics and rebutting their narrative that this was voluntary spiritual participation.”
I almost laughed. “Voluntary,” I echoed.
She nodded once. “Exactly. He’s trying to turn it into belief. We’re keeping it where it belongs: conduct.”
In court, the cult leader looked smaller than he had in my nightmares. No crown. No aura. Just a man in a suit with a carefully neutral expression, like he was waiting for a meeting to start.
His attorney spoke smoothly about misunderstandings and overreach. About how their organization had been unfairly targeted for unconventional beliefs.
Then I took the stand.
My oath felt different this time. The first time I’d spoken, I’d been shaking, still half-hunted. This time, I had years of therapy, years of rage turned into language, years of law school training my mind to organize chaos into facts.
I described the recruitment pitch. The fake Switzerland. The welcome package. The power-of-attorney waiver. The group chat. The word chloroform.
I watched the jurors’ faces tighten when I said “breeding program,” and I didn’t soften it. I didn’t make it palatable.
Because predators rely on victims feeling too embarrassed to say the ugliest parts out loud.
When the defense tried to paint my father as unstable and therefore my story as unreliable, I felt heat rise behind my ribs.
“Your father filed a false death report,” the defense attorney said, voice dripping with implication. “Isn’t it true that your family has a history of dramatic behavior?”
I kept my expression neutral the way trial advocacy coaches taught us.
“My father broke the law,” I said evenly. “And he took legal consequences for it. That doesn’t make the evidence of your client’s actions disappear.”
The attorney smiled thinly. “But it does suggest paranoia.”
I leaned forward slightly. “Paranoia would be believing in danger without evidence,” I said. “I have evidence. Your client was caught on video drugging my drink. A member of his organization was arrested with zip ties and a syringe. Vans tied to shell companies linked to his compound were parked on my campus.”
The judge’s gaze sharpened. The defense attorney’s smile flickered.
And I felt it, that subtle moment when the room shifted—when the narrative stopped being quirky and started being criminal.
Afterward, outside the courtroom, the prosecutor thanked me again.
“This matters,” she said. “He won’t be able to twist this into a joke.”
On the way out, I passed a small cluster of reporters.
One lifted a mic. “Do you have any comment about—”
I kept walking.
Jonah waited outside on the courthouse steps, hands in his jacket pockets, eyes scanning the street the way he always did.
He didn’t ask how it went until we were in the car with the doors locked.
“How do you feel?” he asked softly.
I stared out at the city, the traffic, the ordinary people with ordinary problems.
“Like I finally got to say it without being laughed at,” I said. “Like I got to take my story back.”
He nodded, and his fingers found mine on the console between us.
That night, I opened my email to find a message from Kayle.
I hadn’t heard from her in over a year. The subject line was: I’m sorry I’m doing this by email.
Her message was longer than I expected. She wrote about therapy, about realizing she’d always tried to become important by inserting herself into other people’s pain. She apologized again for the eulogy, for turning my fake death into her moment.
Then she wrote something that made my throat tighten.
I didn’t know what it meant to be scared for real until I saw those cult people on the news, she wrote. I thought you were just dramatic when you said you felt hunted. I’m ashamed of that. I’m trying to be better.
At the end, she asked for one thing: could I talk to her younger cousin, who had been approached online by a “wellness mentorship group” promising a scholarship and a retreat?
My stomach clenched.
The cult was gone. The tactics weren’t.
I replied, short and direct: Yes. Tell her not to sign anything. Tell her to save every message.
Two days later, I was on a video call with a seventeen-year-old girl whose eyes were wide with the exact kind of uncertainty predators love.
“They’re really nice,” she said. “They say they see my potential.”
“They always do,” I said gently. “Can you show me what they sent?”
She shared her screen. The language was softer than Gerald’s cult, but the structure was the same: urgency, exclusivity, isolation, commitment.
I walked her through it like I was disarming a bomb.
When we finished, she looked relieved and shaken.
“Thank you,” she whispered. “I felt crazy for being uncomfortable.”
“You’re not crazy,” I told her. “Your discomfort is information. Listen to it.”
After the call, I sat back, hands trembling with a familiar adrenaline.
I realized something then: my life had become a kind of firewall.
Not because I was special, but because I’d survived long enough to recognize the smoke before the fire.
And for the first time, that didn’t just feel like trauma.
It felt like power.
Part 8
By the time I graduated law school, my classmates had jobs lined up in corporate firms with glass offices and salaries that made my head spin. They joked about billable hours and espresso addictions like it was a rite of passage.
I took a different offer.
A small nonprofit that worked with victims of coercive control and fraud disguised as opportunity. The office was cramped and smelled faintly of old paper. The chairs didn’t match. The coffee was terrible.
I loved it.
On my first day, my supervisor handed me a case file and said, “We don’t save people. We help them save themselves.”
The file was about a group that operated mostly online, targeting community college students and first-gen applicants with “exclusive fellowships.” They promised internships, mentorship, travel.
Then they demanded fees, isolation, obedience.
The tactics weren’t dairy-themed. There were no cowbells.
But the structure was familiar enough that my skin prickled.
I worked the case for months—subpoenas, affidavits, cease-and-desist letters that felt like tiny shields. I sat with clients as they tried to untangle shame from reality.
One young man told me, voice shaking, “I feel stupid.”
“You’re not stupid,” I said automatically, and then I paused, because I’d learned to be precise with words. “You were targeted. That’s different.”
At night, Jonah and I built a quiet life. Plants we still sometimes killed. A grocery routine that avoided the dairy aisle without making it a big thing. A bookshelf that held both his trauma memoirs and my thick legal texts.
Dad came to my swearing-in ceremony.
He sat in the second row, because he’d learned not to claim the front. His hands shook when he held up his phone for photos, but his smile was steady.
After the ceremony, he hugged me—careful, asking with his body if it was okay. I hugged back.
“I’m proud of you,” he said softly.
“I know,” I replied, and I meant it as gratitude and boundary both, the way we’d learned.
A year into my job, I received a letter in the mail with no return address.
For a moment, my heart snapped into that old rhythm—danger, danger, danger.
I opened it slowly.
Inside was a single page. Typed. No logo. No yak crown.
It was from a federal victims’ fund administrator. Final restitution documents. The last paperwork tied to the Swiss Institute enterprise.
At the bottom was a note: The case is considered closed.
Closed.
The word looked strange, like it belonged to a different person’s life.
That evening, I took a walk alone, something I hadn’t done easily in years. The air was cool, the streetlights steady. Somewhere in the distance, I heard a faint jingle—someone’s dog collar, probably—and my body tensed out of habit.
Then I breathed.
And my shoulders dropped.
Not all the way. Maybe they never would. But enough.
When I got home, Jonah was cooking, humming under his breath. He looked up. “You okay?” he asked.
I held up the letter. “It’s done,” I said.
He set down the spoon and crossed the room, pulling me into a hug that felt like a safe room with a heartbeat.
Later that week, Dad invited me to dinner.
Not a tense meeting with paperwork. Not a therapy session. Just dinner.
He cooked pasta and over-salted it because he still got nervous trying to impress me. We laughed about it. We talked about sports and my latest case and the neighbor’s ridiculously loud motorcycle.
Halfway through, he got quiet.
“I still think about what I did,” he admitted. “About how I made that choice without you.”
I set my fork down. “I think about it too,” I said.
He waited, eyes fixed on the table like he didn’t deserve to look up.
“I don’t forgive the method,” I said, because honesty mattered. “But I understand the reason.”
His breath hitched.
“And I need you to hear this,” I continued. “You didn’t save me because you’re my hero. You saved me because you were terrified. Because you didn’t know how to trust the world. Because you didn’t know how to trust me.”
He nodded, tears gathering. “I know.”
“But you did one thing right afterward,” I said. “You faced the consequences. You went to therapy. You changed. You let me be angry. You let me rebuild on my terms.”
He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand, embarrassed in a way that used to make him defensive. Now it just made him human.
“I’m still learning,” he whispered.
“Me too,” I said.
After dinner, I drove home through quiet streets and thought about that first day—the wreath, the obituary, the ridiculous lobster float lie that had detonated my life.
My education hadn’t been destroyed.
It had been rerouted.
I didn’t get the clean, shiny study abroad path I’d planned. I didn’t get the resume line I’d obsessed over. I didn’t get the version of myself who believed every opportunity was safe if it came with glossy brochures.
Instead, I got something heavier and sharper.
I got proof that danger can wear a suit and a smile and a tiny cowbell pin.
I got proof that fear can make people do monstrous things and desperate things, sometimes in the same breath.
And I got a life where my work meant something beyond me.
That night, I taped the courthouse letter inside a journal I kept for the days my brain tried to drag me backward.
Closed, it said.
I traced the word with my finger and felt something settle inside my chest, not like forgetting, but like finally placing a heavy box down on the floor after carrying it for miles.
My dad destroyed my education, on paper.
But the life that grew in the space it left behind was real.
And it was mine.
THE END!
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